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      This time last year, I made a decision, despite other options I went back to work for the coach company that had laid me off 2 months before. The choice was mainly made because I had figured out that being a coach driver is the right job for me. If I’d win the lottery tomorrow, I’d buy my own coach the same day. I had a great year, challenging jobs and a decent number of international trips. But winter came and that brought along a less positive period. The vacation in Sweden was great, so much rest and such a wonderful quiet country. After my return though, I was presented with a very different reality. A car breaking down, a house renovation forcing costs on me, nightmare traffic and winter weather. All this made me depressed and the doubts about my job, and the poor income that comes with it, once again got the better of me. I started exploring my options, went to some interviews and talked things over with friends and family. Finally, I decided to bite the bullet. Better times would come with the start of the season and in the long run I’d manage fine with the income I had. Only days after though I got devastating news; where I had hoped for more certainty, I got the opposite and was told I’m laid off again. I should be furious, I have given all I have for this company in the past 4 years. I accepted them screwing me out of a solid contract, and this is what I get in return – a lousy 3 week notice before the end of my current contract. Why I am not furious, I do not know. Maybe it’s the shock? My life is turned upside down but most of all, I feel I have been stabbed in the back. I just don’t get it and 2 questions dominate my thoughts: Why? What now? I don’t have an answer for either…

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